Moving on...

Phew! At last found some time to return to the blog and revive it before it gets lost somewhere in the big bad world of web and before I forget that I do have a blog that needs to be updated periodically, at the least! That’s what blogs are there for in the first place. Oh well! Never mind the fact that no one really misses or cares about it except you. Just the satisfaction derived out of putting down your thoughts on paper (rather venting out your emotions) is an incentive enough to write the blog. And for once, I do have plenty to write about, lots of emotions sweeping inside me and lots to express but all my thoughts are so cluttered at the moment that I am at a loss of words. (Surprising, ain’t it?? :P)

So much has happened in the past few months and for the first time in last few years I feel that life is finally moving ahead…in the right direction! Of course, there are times when I miss my life in the US.. the lifestyle, the comfort and convenience, the freedom, the friends we made there and scores of other small things. But at this juncture of life, I now realize and know that nothing is as important as inner peace and inner contentment, which I seem to have attained only after coming here. My life has found a purpose and every day brings with it a new sunshine, new dreams and a new beginning!  Obviously, there are days of gray clouds hovering over but most of the time it gets overshadowed by the brightness emitted by the rays of sunshine.

Since the last few years, life had become so stagnant and monotonous that only when it was time to come back, I realized that I had not achieved a single thing in all these years and was standing exactly where I had started fours years back when I had first come to the US. Everyone who had started with me or even started out way later than me were moving at a lightening speed and before I could blink my eyes everybody had vanished! Or rather, had spread their wings and moved on way ahead in their lives, whereas, I was still standing at the starting point with no clue which way to embark on.

Life was staring back at me in astonishment and mocked me in a way telling me “Heya there! Wake up and get moving with your life or else life will surpass you!” Well, sometimes even when you wish and try, things don’t seem to budge and move forward. Life has its own way of surprising us and throwing us in gear. Now eventually, life seems to be in motion and is gaining pace gradually. And the emotion of worthiness and aliveness is at its pinnacle for the first time ever. So let me bask in this glory of emotion before it veils away and am brought back to the mundane reality of life!