A mother's letter..

My dear daughter,

Ever since you came into my life, announcing your arrival with a loud cry followed by a declaration ‘It’s a girl!’, I knew my life was about to experience the most significant change ever. I don’t know if that change is for the good or bad. I am not sure if that change is temporary or permanent. I’m not even certain that change is essential or unessential. All I can be confident about is that this change will be embraced with open arms just as you. I know life won’t be the same as it was before, we will have to think a zillion times before your dad and I do anything like going out for dinner, enjoying a movie in the theatre, hanging out with friends, going for a vacation and many other similar stuff which we did for our enjoyment and fun . Even a simple task of sleeping all night long at a stretch seems farfetched as of now. But all of these things seem petty when I weigh it against the happiness and inner contentment that I attain when I see you or when I am with you and when I do all those little things for you. Be it feeding you, burping you, cleaning you, changing you, rocking you, singing lullabies to you. It brings utmost joy and peace within. Nowadays, no dinner seem complete without you, no movie starts or ends without you, no vacation is fun without you and no sleep is peaceful without you around. Its like our life is completely incomplete without you. You gave me the opportunity to become a mother and I hope to be an ideal one for you. You are the center of my being and my entire world revolves around you and your actions. Like when you reveal your toothless smile even for a flash of a second, my heart skips a beat. Like when you look at me with those big brown eyes, my heart melts. Like when you clasp your tiny hand around my fingers, all my weariness fades away in an instant. Like when you make those adorable gurgling sounds as if you wanna talk to me, my world pauses right there and wish I could rewind back and play those sounds again and again. Like when your tiny little body snugly fits into mine in a warm embrace, my protective instinct leaps out to guard you from all the evils of the world and let no harm come to you. Like when you sleep so peacefully in my arms, I never want to let go of you ever. And like when you cry, my heart just bleeds. Am certain every mother in this world would feel the same for her child and I am no exception, but it is an entirely fresh feeling for me and it does feel truly special to me. I might not be able to do justice expressing how thankful I am to have you in my life, giving me my purpose in life and making my life worthwhile. And that’s the reason behind this letter which I’m penning down right now, which you shall read when you are grown up and if I’m not around anymore then this letter shall remain with you as an eternal memory and shall keep reminding you how very much your mamma loves you!

Yours truly, Mamma.

P.S. – Well missy, I know you are old enough to read this now so just keep in mind that it doesn’t mean you can have your way all the time and take undue advantage of my love after reading this letter. As much as I love you, I will still be a parent first and can become your worst nightmare if need be! So it’s fine with me if you hate me once in a while, that way I know that I’m doing my parenting job properly. So dear, now get back to your homework and no more t.v for the day. Thank you!