Colors of life

The grief was written all over my face. The sadness in my eyes betrayed how strongly it has impacted me and my life, even as I made an attempt to be calm and poised on the outside. Inside, I was a complete wreck. How could I have let this happen? How careless and insensitive could I be? How could I have not seen it coming? It’s not that this hasn’t happened before, it has. And yet, I couldn’t do anything to prevent it from happening yet again! It happened all so sudden and in a split second my life was completely changed. I lost someone very precious and dear to me! And never had I felt so helpless in my life. It was as if my life had paused right there and then. And I go in the flashback mode and start to reminisce the good old times when we were together. Ours wasn’t a very old relationship though the bond was just as strong. It just has been a little over two years ago when we first met. But we connected instantly and how! Even my hubby, at times, felt envious of the bond w...

 And my little angel has completed one full year on this earth! What a year it was! I am still amazed how did the year whiz by at such a fast pace. Daughters, I tell you, grow up super fast and before you can blink an eye it’s time for her to spread her wings and fly away to a different nest. The thought itself gives me a shudder and I can now relate to how my parents must have felt when their little daughter also flew away from their protected nest to make her own nest in a different country as soon as she grew up. Sigh! But, that’s the way of life. A daughter is a blessing from above and spreads happiness, love and care wherever she goes. I, as a parent, feel extremely blessed to have this little angel in my life and can’t thank God enough for this wonderful bundle of joy! So then, why do so many people in our country still consider having a daughter as some sort of a ‘taboo’ and get disheartened by the birth of a girl child, in this day and age? Why do we still nee...

So today is International women’s day. A day to celebrate the spirit of women. A day to celebrate the achievements of women. A day to celebrate the existence of women. A day to celebrate.. WOMEN per se! And why not? Women are equally at par with men and have the potential to do everything a man does. Time and again it has been proved. Women have made their mark in all fields. And spaces. Imagine a world without women. Unthinkable, right? So it perfectly makes sense that the world celebrates women’s day with a bang. What doesn’t make sense is what are we, women of India, celebrating the women’s day for? Okay, I understand there are a few women who are successful and have left their mark globally and I totally respect those women.   But what about billions of them who share the same plight, same agony just for being a woman in this so called modern and developing India. Don’t get me wrong here, I’m proud of being a woman and if I have the right to choose then I would definit...

Okay, I know I broke my New year resolution and didn’t try to keep up with it even once! The cliché ‘Resolutions are meant to be broken’ probably might have saved the day for me, if only I didn’t feel so guilty about breaking it. It’s not that I didn’t want to write but the lack of time and energy prevented me from achieving my resolution. I could have managed the time factor if needed but the energy factor became a deterrent. After running behind my little terror, who is all of nine months now and is a powerhouse of energy, all day round consumes all my stored energy of the day not leaving much for the rest of things I would want or like to do. Like opening my laptop has also become a once-a-week affair. For those who don’t know me personally, let me enlighten you with this simple but significant detail which is extremely crucial to understand its gigantic role in my life, to comprehend that it is a big deal for someone like me who used to survive on it on a daily basis pre-pregn...

A new year. A new beginning. New hopes. New resolutions. New dreams. Yet another year gone by turning all the events of the past year into memories, some etched in our minds forever! The past year bestowed upon us hope & happiness proving it to be a landmark year for us and it also gave me the most coveted and valuable title of my life which every woman dreams of. Mother! The past year has been a joyride all the way. Life has never been so busy yet super fun, before I embarked on the journey of motherhood. The last seven months of the year whizzed by so swiftly that I just amazingly realized the fact that my little baby has completed a little more than first half of the year on this earth already! Whoa ! Where did the time fly I wonder? Looks like I’ve been so engrossed (and happily so) in changing diapers and cleaning baby bottles that I probably just lost track of all time! :P   Seriously, it just feels like yesterday when we came back to India struggling to settle...

After five months I finally saw a movie in a theatre, which is a big deal for someone who is a movie buff and has to see the latest releases on a 70”mm screen. Even during my pregnancy I saw a lot many movies so it came as no surprise when I found my four month old watching tv with eyes wide open without batting an eyelid! Aahhh the damn genes venes I tell you! I always thought that I would be a strict parent and would never allow my children to watch tv till they start school. Well, it seems my thought bubble has already busted even before it was fully inflated. Sigh Vigh!  Oh well, coming back to the point, as you might have already guessed we saw this movie called ‘English Vinglish’. It is a beautiful movie with fabulous acting by its actors. Nahh, this post is not about the movie review if that is what you are speculating. What inspired me and thereby this post was the simplistic manner in which the movie conveys the reality of life. The era we live in, if you don’...

My dear daughter, Ever since you came into my life, announcing your arrival with a loud cry followed by a declaration ‘It’s a girl!’, I knew my life was about to experience the most significant change ever. I don’t know if that change is for the good or bad. I am not sure if that change is temporary or permanent. I’m not even certain that change is essential or unessential. All I can be confident about is that this change will be embraced with open arms just as you. I know life won’t be the same as it was before, we will have to think a zillion times before your dad and I do anything like going out for dinner, enjoying a movie in the theatre, hanging out with friends, going for a vacation and many other similar stuff which we did for our enjoyment and fun . Even a simple task of sleeping all night long at a stretch seems farfetched as of now. But all of these things seem petty when I weigh it against the happiness and inner contentment that I attain when I see you or wh...

So after another long sabbatical (this time for a valid reason..I promise!), I’m back yet again. With a bang! Yes, that’s right… With a loud BANG I want to announce happily and proudly to the world that I’ve become a ‘Mommy’ to a beautiful little baby girl! We feel immensely blessed and eternally grateful to God for bestowing us with such a precious and priceless gift ever. It is the most wonderful feeling on this earth, to be a mother, as I’m sure all the beautiful moms would nod their heads in agreement. Earlier, even before I was married, whenever I pictured myself with my child somehow I always pictured a baby girl. So I guess my subconscious mind already knew that it would be a girl though everyone who saw me during my pregnancy betted their life on that I was going to have a baby boy! And boy! were they wrong (much to my relief!). Not that I don’t like baby boys, its just that I love baby girls much more. For multiple reasons; they are super cute and adorable, its so muc...

So today is our engagement anniversary. Yeah our relationship turned five years old today. My mind wandered back in time and I started reminiscing about how it all began five years ago… It is still fresh and vivid in my mind as if it all happened just yesterday! The excitement, the chaos, the apprehension is forever etched in my memory. I realized then that I was about to experience a life changing event and that it was a turning point in my life which will change the course of direction I was going till now, forever!  It all started with my dad telling me casually, while in the car, that we are going to see a ‘boy’ who is from US and is in India currently on a short visit and might be in a hurry to marry and go back to US. For me, who was already so averse to going to US, and added to that fact rushing into a marriage with a complete stranger, it did not fly too well with me. So I was like “ Dad, please turn back the car. I’m not going anywhere and I’m least intere...

'Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus’ goes a famous saying.  And I now realize the true meaning and importance of this well-known quote, which was just that -before I discovered the deeper significance behind these legendary words – a quote!   Ever wonder how, if men are from Mars and women from Venus, did they meet on Earth of all planets? Well, maybe in search of the ‘Forbidden Apple’, I suppose! Hmmm, that makes sense… doesn’t it? Or does it? Well, whatever… the fact is that they did meet on Earth, somehow, and we (some infinite amount of people on this Earth) are a living proof of that! Marriages are made in heaven but… lived on earth! I often speculate how God knew who is the right match for you and on what basis does He pre-decide on your partner even before you are conceived! And more often than not it turns out to be a ‘perfect mis -match made in heaven’… :P  and therein lies the secret behind the words of the famous saying above. I know, I kn...